Old Relationships...

Well, the other day I got an email from my ex-boyfriend on how he is coping with our breakup. He had written a very wellcomposed poem about how he has been feeling. It helps him deal with the pain of losing me. If it helps him, I can deal with that. I read it at least ten times the day he sent it to me; every single time it made me cry.

I just feel horrible about what happened between us. While it is not quite ready to be re-opened and resolved, I still have high hopes of being his friend someday. I love and respect him very much.

Here it is.

Under the Willow Tree

1. My pool of tears grow

2. Under the willow tree

3. My pool of tears grow





4. These eyes cannot see

5. Where is my broken love

6. Under the willow tree





7. So I cry to heaven above

8. Wishing I knew the answer

9. Where is my broken love





10. Gone is my graceful dancer

11. Oh, my heart is weak

12. Wishing I knew the answer





13. Tear upon rosen cheek

14. Smile turned to sorrow

15. My heart is weak





16. Desperate want of tomorrow

17. My pool of tears grow

18. Smile turned to sorrow

19. My pool of tears grow

Apology.

Ok.. so, this post is definitely not an apology to boys... But rather, an apology to the rudeness, and the bluntness I expressed in my last post... I do feel bad about communicating my annoyance in such a harsh way... And, in the end, it didn't really make me feel that much better. I think I have learned a valuable lesson. Keep the sarcastic rude thoughts to yourself.
I'm terribly embarrassed at my lash out, please forgive me?

Cherry Lollipops

I'm just going to go off for a brief second...
I dream of a world without stupid boys.

So, I was just thinking that boyfriends are a waste of time, energy, and space.
First of all, they lure you in to caring about them, just to smash your heart when you do something wrong.

Second, they take advantage of as much as you will give them. Sometimes, that might be sex (thank GOD my ex-boyfriend and I didn't do that, otherwise I would have those emotional ties with him, and all that other crap that goes along with it, including: hurt, pain, insecurity, the chance of being PREGNANT.)

Thirdly, when you finally get your lowsy low life butt out of the relationship, knowing it was the right thing to do at that moment, when you so much as TALK to him about what it would be like to get back together, he just tells you he can't handle that kind of abuse again... Cuz you "broke his heart"

WHAT??? What abuse?? You mean, the abuse the girl incurred while trying to keep him happy???? OR, is he wallowing in self-pity, the smelly pit-stained jerk!? Because deep down he knows she will never go back with him because she's too good for him now!!!! Yeah... and you broke his heart alright... POOR BABY!

Yeah right... give the girl the guilt trip! Does this sound like the typical ex-boyfriend to anyone else? Does to me!Thank you for listening to my rantings.. I feel much better.