Good day/ Bad day

It seems that everyday starts out fine,and by the end of it, it has no longer any meaning, and no longer any glint of joy in it. I feel run down every night,and find myself crying every night. What can stop this? I beg God to be real to me, and to give me some sort of different day. So far no answer. Maybe this is all a test for me... Who knows.
Yesterday was an ok day... overall. There were MANY moments that we more than horrible. Why can't I stay strong every day, all day? It's like I am slowly being drained by things that affect my world.
Later.